A rant about vaginas and men.

This is a rant about vaginas and men.

I am tired of both. You want to why? Well, for the first part of this, I will talk about how I am tired of having a vagina. I am tired of mine, I am always have some sort of a problem with mine and it always has been that way. Well, when I started having sex, that is when all the problems started. Which leads me to believe that my vagina hates me or God is punishing me for something. Take your pick. My vagina has done nothing good for me lately and it is pissing me off.

My other part to this rant is about men. Why can't men just accept that most women (mostly me) are insecure? Why do some have to be so damned touchy? I mean for crying out loud, let your intentions be known!! It makes me mad because now, I feel like crap. I feel like a dumbass and I am stuck feeling blue. That is it, I am done with men for awhile and sex.

As far as I am concerned, I wasn't meant for either of them. At least not until I figure out why my vagina hates me and why I am so bad with men.

I don't want any comments on this from anyone, it is just a rant and just let me feel bad for awhile. I need to feel this way for awhile.

P.S. Vaginas suck

Peace Out.

The laundry fairy is moving back...

...Well, my faithful readers, I am sorry that I haven't written in a long time, I apologize for that. I want to post saying that this laundry fairy is moving back to the her home country.

I don't want to mention too much, but I just want to say that I have thought about this for a long time now and I need to make me happy before I can make someone else happy. I need to focus on my me and work on me.

I am not blaming the bf or the laundry fairy, I am blaming us. At this point in time, we don't work anymore and we need to separate.

The bf will do what he needs to be happy and me, laundry fairy will do what she needs to do.

So, which brings me to my point. I will only use this blogs for my musings. It won't be so personal anymore, more like my outlet for being me, since I most people don't understand me and well, I am me.

I need to express it.

That being said, tomorrow I will post some vids of my partner in crime and some Christmas presents and the nifty watch that I bought. I didn't have to pay tax!!! :) Mesa was so happy.

Well, peace out. I need some sleep.

*hugs to all*

It' Friday and time to drink...

It has been awhile my dear friends...and I can feel it. School is going so there. I don't know what I should say about school, except it is school and it has it's moments. I have been writing so much in Swedish that I can't remember where the correct keys are situated anymore. I have my practical test the 20th of December and I am nervous. Then I will go home for about a week and come back and I out into the working world for eleven weeks.

We will see how it goes...

Other than that, I spend a lot of the time feeling confused and wondering if it is worth it. It is shame there are so few programs in English. I would feel more comfortable studying in English. I have been drinking a lot more too, more than I usually do. No, I don't drink everyday, but because of stress, Friday I spend having a few drinks. I have a lot to think about and to be honest, I don't want to have all these responsibilities. I am 24 and I still feel 18. Where did my teenage years go? That is what I am wondering. I feel too grown up.

Hmm, well, like I said, I am frustrated a lot and actually, right now I am frustrated. I know that thinking too much about the future doesn't help, but I do think about it. What if in two years, I can't find work? Or friends? I don't have a lot of those to be honest. In short, my life feels pretty dull.

Well, we will see what happens after my eleven weeks out. If they think this isn't my thing, I really hope they tell me, I don't want to waste two years and I am taking a loan too. I just hope they are smart...

Well, I am tired, so I am ending this post.

It has been awhile....

Well my adoring fans, it has been awhile. It is a Saturday and I finally am remembering to post something. Things are well, could be better. School consumes the most of my time, I can't work out as much as I would like too and I am starting to wonder what the hell I have done. I can't really speak a lot about what has happened, just because I feel so damned ashamed and dirty and pissed.

So, I am not positive. The only good thing is my bf and the possibility of a dog in the future. I would so love to have one now. Bosties are so cute. I miss the snoring and snorting. Bergen is a wonderful dog and I am happy that I will get to see her soon. I am going home in December to fix my license, i.e. get a new one. It will be nice to get a hug from my mom, gram and dog.

On a lighter side, the bf and I went to Kristianstad and spent some money. Or rather I spent the majority of it or it felt like that at least. But it was needed. I have gained a little weight since I started and my body has changed shape. So, I am working on that as well. Which makes it tougher.

If someone could tell me why I lose muscle tissue so damned, I would appreciated that and if anyone has some tips on how to keep ones mouth shut, that would make me happy.

I am to direct and I need some pointers.

Well, I hope everyone has a nice Sunday tomorrow. Me, I am going to try and go to the gym. I will also wash clothes and clean a little and read.

Well, hugs to those who need one.

First week of school goes fast

Boy am I tired!

Why is that the first weeks of school are always take so much out of a person? I swear I haven't felt this tired since I started high school. I remember that Friday, I just crashed and slept so much. But that usually is how it is. When you start something new, for me anyways I become to mentally tired.

As the headline says the first week of school has come and gone. It felt ok. I have a schedule for two weeks and then I will get another for another three weeks sometime next week. A lot of new and interesting things.

It feels ok. I do feel a little unprepared, but I am sure I am not the only one. Well, I am hoping for that.

Not much else happened during the week. I started taking the buss and it has been raining the week, except for on Thursday, it was really nice. Since it has been raining, it is very humid and I have been getting so sweaty. Which stinks really. I don't like sweating unless I am working out.

I will try and update a little this weekend.

Why can't the bagels just come to me?

One of things that I miss since moving away from home/states is bagels.

I miss bagels. I miss Brueggers bagels, I miss Einteins too. They are all great.

I seriously don't understand why Sweden has imported this great bread item.

I guess I will just have to eat my weight in bagels when I go over for a week this December.

Just for the record

I would like the whole world to know that I not miss Bergen, but I also miss my mommy and grandma.

I miss them a lot and it is hard not seeing them every day and talking to them.

I was twenty when I moved away from home and yes, I am a mommies girl, so, let's say, it was hard.

Again, I not only miss Bergen, but I also miss my mommy and grandma.

Maybe they could come and visit me?